In the office, no boss today

I don't know what I am doing

Satisfaction has been miles away from me, I have lost my sense of happiness for two months

From second to second, I am questioning myself who am I, I used to be confident and determining

But at this moment, I have nothing to be confident of

Life is a trip passing over crest and trough

Now I am trapped at a deepest trough I have ever been.......

And at this moment, I cannot see anthing likely to be a crest

I am lost, stressful and scared for every single second.

睇返上一篇xanga，話自已就黎做完Venetian Hotel個Project

一個月的時間，有23日係澳門過，見工人多過見屋企人

仲曬到比屋企人話好似非洲返黎咁，幾次係街度見到識ge人都唔認得我!!

的確，上星期返左office半個星期，點知今個星期，

要同另一間公司合作搞落標，星期五交

去左北角人地office返工，呢個星期真係...............

星期一係最早收的一日，走時係零晨12點半，仲搭到地鐵

星期二就兩點先走，好彩可以打的claim公數

星期三..............應該話星期三+星期四，

由星期三的9am做到星期五的1am，即係連續返工40個鐘!!

年紀比人細，經驗比人淺，做野就要比人吃得苦

兩個月黎，生理心理上的磨練都試過，仲有o羊好怕？

永不言敗，將來一定比人強！

Still one more week to go before I can finish the Venetian Hotel's project

Very hard job, but I do learnt a lot, not only technical experience,

but also communication with very superior staff

My skin colour is now even darker than my Indonesian maid

No matter how hard the job is, I will be tougher than the situation

I want to prove myself and to improve myself, never being defeated

See you guys one week later.............

下午從澳門返黎

一天半的時間係有史以黎最大的考驗

32度的高溫，在鋪滿黑色liner的地面行走，實際應該係~40度

F.3時同學因為我的英文拼音係"Geng Jiu"，叫我做「煎蕉」

今天，在這40度的黑色煎pan上，真的應驗了這名字

以前聽到人地話日頭好毒，這次我先真正感受到

現在雙臂呈現好似敏感的紅色

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原來我的心理質素仲未夠強

那些地盤工人日復日都係咁做，見不到盡頭

我只係一日半日，仲只不過做D inspection都捱唔到，有待改善

要成位一個工程師，再辛苦都要捱落去

Left my xanga blank for a month

I wrote my last entry during my last summer vacation as a student

Now I have already been working for nearly 2 weeks and I am enjoying my job everyday

Career Life seems to be more suitable to me than university life

A lot to learn and my boss is so kind that he gives me chances to work independently,

answer my questions whenever i ask him with detailed explanation, give me guidance to stimulate my thoughts

within 2 weeks, I have been to Macau twice, for day trips, I am going again tomorrow, may stay for 3 days there this time

learnt a lot from documents, learnt a lot on site(construction site, my project is about an artificial lagoon of Venetian Hotel, a hotel company comes from Las Vegas)

I still think I should be able to have a bright future, hopefully that if I can

at the same time of starting career, me and my girlfriend are working hard together, supporting each other

fighting for ourselves and our future, hope it to be a good one, and for all of my friends!